Memories......

I didn't want to dig it up again, but I do feel the need to make things clear cos I really care about the person reading this. I once had a gf, we got together before she could break off with her bf and the best part was I didn't even know that she had a bf then. We got really close and the bf found out about us. He told her parents about us and the parents sided with the bf (unknowing that the bf had physically abused her many times, I knew about it from the scars on her hands and back). Her family member all thought that the good guy was her bf and she was cheating on him. But the fact was she wanted a break but the bf kept on pestering her. Finally she left me becos she couldn't stand the pressure from her family. You see, caring too much about how others feel and letting others take control of your life is not a good thing. You live your own life and what you do should only be your choice and not becos of somebody else. Many a times we get angry becos somebody else did something to make us angry, can we control others' feelings or actions? Do what you think is right and do not live to regret it becos you only have 1 life and let not others control how you live it.
As for my ex gf, she got married to the bf. She tried to divorce him a year later but couldn't (I wasn't sure what was the reason but I bet it has got to do with her parents). The last time I saw her she was pregnant, walking with her husband, not holding hands like two strangers. Every time I remember her my heartaches but I could never forget.......as for the person reading this, yes I do care enough to write this for you and I would swear that I would have broken that lock of yours long ago.

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